trust in Him

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Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding

-Proverbs 3:5

This was one of the hardest things I’ve had to learn to do so far in terms of my walk with Christ. This story may sound small to you, but God works differently in everyone’s life, and this is how He showed me that I need to trust in Him.

I have taken my road test quite a number of times. Each time, I was confident I would get my license, and each time I would hit an obstacle or “break the law” on the road. I didn’t understand why I would make these mistakes because I confidently knew that I was a good driver and that I could make it past each stage – but I didn’t. I would pray the night before my test, the morning of my test, while I was waiting to start my test, and while I was taking the test – that’s a lot of prayer. It didn’t make sense to me that I would pray but God wouldn’t give me the license. Each time I was getting more and more frustrated, not only with myself but with God too.  “Why, Lord?”

After a few tries, I “took a break”. In other words, I gave up. A few months later, my mum actually had to remind me and push me to go back, but I didn’t even want to try again. My mum forced me to try again. Once again, I was disappointed. The frustration turned to anger (I hardly get angry so you can imagine how serious this was!). My impatience grew. I remember saying to my mum, “It feels like I’m never going to get it.” I began to think more about why God wouldn’t let me have the license, and I am sure that it wasn’t because I was a bad driver, because I wasn’t and I’m not – for real.

I had a revelation a few days after I had retaken the road test. It happened while I was waiting at a till in Pick n Pay. In summary, I realized that I wasn’t trusting in God and that’s why I was so impatient, frustrated and angry. I wasn’t leaving it in His hands because I was trying to make myself the master of my life, which I’m not. You’ve just got to take a step back, and let the Lord lead you. However, trusting in God doesn’t mean you’ll get what you want, when you want it and how you want it. Trusting in God means waiting patiently for God to bless you with what your heart desires, when He desires it for you and how He desires it for you. Honestly, it wasn’t easy to leave my situation in His hands because I wanted my license really badly (I still want it!) but I know that my Father in heaven has my best interests at heart.

Trusting in God, especially when you’re going through tough times is not easy at first, but when you read that Proverbs verse, you realize that trusting in God is actually the easier way to go because He knows and understands everything – you don’t. Know that because He loves you, He will never let you go through rough patches for no reason. Every time you stumble, you have to get back up because God is just preparing you for the plans that He has for you. Who better to trust in than He who created you?

God truly loves you.

With Love,

Mandile

Shout-out: Lauren Daigle. She is one of my favourite Christian artists. Her voice is amazing and she sings the truth. Watch her music video (and listen to the lyrics) for her song “Trust in You” here.