Dear God,
What am I doing with my life? I thought I had it all figured
and when I realized that I have no idea what I’m doing, it made me sad. I’m
sad, Lord. I’m crying out to you – silently. My heart. There’s a hole Lord – in
my heart. I’m empty Lord, and I’m not sure what to do. Right now, I don’t know
who I am. I’m lost. What am I doing, Lord?
Life. Beauty. Purpose. Peace. Self-worth. Purpose.
What’s my purpose, Lord? Why am I on this earth? I need
help, Lord. God, I’m unsure and I’m confused. I’ve lost myself and I’ve lost
you, haven’t I? I’ve lost you. I’m sitting here, Lord. You’re here but…you’re
not here. Where are you? Why do I feel empty Lord? Fill me up, God – I’m
running low on…You. I’m running low on You. I can’t move anymore. I’m crying.
Success. Peace. Me. Truth. Identity. Self-worth. Me.
Lord, it’s me. Your child. I need you, God. I’M LOST. Where
are you, O light. Where is the light? Where is the path? I just had it all
figured out. Not anymore. What’s the plan now? What’s the plan, Lord? What’s
your plan, Lord? What am I supposed to be doing?! Lord!
I’m not angry, Lord. I’m not angry at you, Lord. I promise.
I’m just sad. I’m sad because I don’t
know – I don’t know anything. I don’t know myself. I don’t know my purpose. I
don’t know the path. I don’t know what I’m doing. What happened to me? What
happened to me? What’s happening to me?
I’m lost. I need the light. Your light. Jesus is the light.
I need Jesus in my heart.
Amen.
You're out in the world and it's difficult, you may feel like you don't know your purpose because everyone has an opinion on who you should be or what you should do. Mandi,you're one of the most beautiful souls I've ever met and I have no doubt you'll figure out your purpose in life. You have always had the wildest dreams , God put them in your heart. Chase them and don't let fear hold you back. I believe in you Xxx
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